I don't need new ones.

The context of the following conversation is not important, so I'm not going to explain it.

I just thought it was funny at the time.

My brother: What if you become friends with her because of her baby, and what if you get sucked into drugs too? What if you start dealing drugs?

Me: Uh, do you think I would actually make a new friend? I have friends. I don't need new ones. There are no vacancies in that department of my life.

My brother pauses for a second and doesn't say much. Then he finally comes up with a response: ...yeah, I'm the same way.

*Please note, I have never done drugs. My only vice is Pugs.

Penny and me

This dog is the best thing that's ever happened to me.

We've been through changes in jobs, apartments, houses, cities, relationships and teeth. I got my other dogs so she could have some buddies to hang out with when I'm gone.

I love my other dogs, but Penny is my original pig. She will always be my first fur child in my adult life.

Penny and me are a team.

Not lost on me

I wrote this last week. 

You don't have to tell me that dental infections can be bad. Deadly, even.

When I wake up in the morning, I remind myself to be thankful and grateful that I finally found a team of doctors who can fix my problems. 

They're a pretty great team. I like these new people a lot.

It means a lot to me to have people I just met stick up for me and work hard to fix my problems. I haven't had that in the past, and the importance of that is not lost on me.

--

I met doctor #18 today, a new physical therapist because #17 is on maternity leave.

I cancelled my first appointment with #18 because that was the week my tooth, mouth and life exploded.

I explained what happened to my tooth to my PT, because being on antibiotics and pain killers completely wrecked my digestive system. Like, all the progress I had made in that department of my life went down the toilet.

Doctor #18 looked at me after I explained the problem, and she told me the infection I had in my mouth could have gone to my heart.

"That oral surgeon just saved your life."

Today I ate a piece of humble pie. 

I am amazed at Wichita's health care. It's the best care I've ever had and I've loved all the doctors I've gone to there.

Thank you, Wichita, for saving my life.

x

Pain

You always told me that pain is a gift.

Your pain is a gift. My pain is just painful.

-Nashville

Not going to happen

Found on Reddit: "Fun" and "going out" expenses are not going to happen for a while, because it just hit the fan.

Nashville quotes

- You are not going to throw away the opportunity of a lifetime just because you got dumped.

- I know you think this is the end of the world, but it's not.

- Plan? There is no plan. I'm making this stuff up as I go.

- I want where I'm going to be better than where I came from.

- I need pointers on how to be spontaneous.
It's not that hard. You listen to what people tell you to do and do the opposite.

- You can't save people who don't want to be saved.

- In grief people do a lot of strange stuff.

- You are allowed to make mistakes in life. You are allowed to have feelings about that. You are allowed to stand up for yourself.

Uh...

Society: You look great! How much weight have you lost? What's your exercise routine? What's your secret?

Me: Uh...

People, I have organ damage from my digestive issues, plus I didn't really eat food for a while because my face felt like it was on fire and trying to kill me.

New rule: Don't ever ask anyone about their weight.