It was a lovely dream.

Love

Dreams

Cozy sleeps

Red like his wine

And the cherry in my drink

It was a lovely dream

Gold

Like the ring I wanted

but never got

Summer

Drunk music

Loud as we could get it

A flask in the neighbor’s yard

Laughter

Breakfasts

Road trips

Meeting his family

Him meeting mine

Blue

Like his eyes

In the summer skies

Brown

Like my knee high boots

He asked me to wear

Like coffee on my bedside table in the morning

And his couch

A pile of clothes on the floor

And I still want more

Football games on bar TVs

Rooting for purple, not orange

Kisses

Tongues and touches

Passion

Holding hands

And each other

Gentle touches

Cute clutches

Fall

Orange, red and yellow everywhere

A city starry night sky

Music downtown

Long walks, art, museums

Taking Ubers around town

Leaves on the ground

And then I was down

It was good while it was good, and then it wasn’t

It was alive

Until it wasn’t

White

Like his sheets

And the snow

And his lies

And all the times I tried

It felt like love

But it wasn’t

Could have spent forever with him

But won’t

Not love

Not passion

Not red or gold

Or purple or white or yellow

Black, like

Loneliness

Unfaithfulness

Unreturned messages

Love unappreciated and 

Unhindered

Staring at a wall

Wondering if he’ll call

or care at all

Or fall 

back in love

or lust

or whatever that was

Thinking about how fast time is moving

Without him

Missing him

Lies

Deceit 

Cold feet

Rejection

No affection

Sleeping on his pillow

It smells like him and he’s not here

Colors everywhere

All around me, yet all l I see is 

Grey

Cold and brokenness

Snow everywhere

Mud and muck

Gave him my all, gave him my best

How does love go from happy one day

to dead the next?